Zurra's Penny Thoughts

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i have typed so many words describing so many feelings… but i keep on deleting them. I cant do it.. hehehe… so weird…………. all i can say… as we live this life.. so many suprises comes our way… even about those we know.. well.. we thought we knew…. hmm…

thanks to all who have made me realise a few things… that i had overlooked al these times. i appreciate my sisters who have stood by me all these years… i must also thank the others who have made feel like shit … in which has ..to my benefit made me a wiser wiser person.. :)

THANK YOU……………………

sensitive...

im not sure if its the pressure of wedding preps.. or.. the age or pms or.. any other reasons… but im feeling very much sensitive lately. i get teary easily. i feel uneasy. i feel down easily. its not about the relationship with O. coz.. he has been very supportive. tolerating my mood swings and kept me grounded. Maybe its the thought of the wedding and dealing with parents. i think there is some kind of communication breakdown somewhere. and i think i am unhappy about certain reactions of my parents. Maybe… emm.. thank god O has been great. He tolerates me. and he doesnt judge me or my my family for these crazy outburst and weird circumstances……. emm.. but i am bothered!!!! I think i have loads on my mind. but i dunno where and how to offload. i know.. somehow.. this is about my parents. A problem of more than 15 yrs is affecting me now. Both parents not talking will make this process of getting married a little more difficult. trying to coordinate both mum and dad’s wants and requests is not going to be easy. plus i have wants of my own.. which somehow i think i have to forgo now.. *sigh*…………..

i just needed to get that out of my system…..

love........

went to the Kursus Kahwin last weekend. hmm… was tiring„, long.. but also fun and funny! hehehe.. i had a good laugh there. the penceramahs were very funny. hehehe things they say were just hilarous. hehe but anyways… all the talks had their own hidden meanings, which is very useful in a marriage…:)

Wat struck me the most is wen the Ustazah was talking about domestic violence in marriages. She compared it to all the wars going on in Palestine and all.. She said… that wars between rivals are normal.. killing innocents and all. Its not right.. but u kinda expect it as it is they are attacking their enemies. But its so sad when in a relationship..may it be a husband and wife.. gf and bf… or even mother and children or father and children…there is violence. And between these ppl they can hurt each other physically or emotionally. I had a long thought…. and i guess what the Ustazah said is true. In a marriage.. between hubby and wifey.. there should be LOVE… and compassionate.. belas kasihan and all.. but how.. is it possible.. when we feel as such.. even if not head over heels.. but just a hint of love… these ppl are able to hurt their partners. this in someways is worse off than those bombing going on… its sad.

i am hoping.. an praying to Allah.. to just continue to have the love in me.. and those around me.. as long as we live.. and hoping with this .. we are able to live… with love also with more humanity…..

Wedding Gift Favors...

hmm.. ive had this idea for quite awhile already… but i wasnt sure if it can work or not… hehehe due to legal matters. I want to give out CDs as my wedding favors to guests. Well.. this would be for the 080809 reception at Laman Function House. I would prolly would have to prepare about 350pcs for all guests. I saw in one of the Brides mags…. (Msian latest edition) personalised CDs were also one on the recommendation list. I was a bit worried as it could be under the copyright license and all those crap. But i was thinking.. if i were to buy these songs over iTunes legally… and then burn them.. for the wedding and give away with a disclamer that says for personal use and not for sale… would it work??? i have already some songs in my head.. i am excited about this idea…suk sorang2. hehehehe at least ppl would play it later and remember my wedding hehehe

any thoughts????

Everything.......Micheal Buble

Everything…..

You’re a falling star, You’re the get away car.
You’re the line in the sand when I go too far.
You’re the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you’re the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy, but it’s kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don’t pretend, that you don’t know it’s true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It’s you, it’s you, You make me sing.
You’re every line, you’re every word, you’re everything.

You’re a carousel, you’re a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You’re a mystery, you’re from outer space,
You’re every minute of my everyday.

And I can’t believe, uh that I’m your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we’ll see it through,
And you know that’s what our love can do.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It’s you, it’s you, You make me sing
You’re every line, you’re every word, you’re everything.

***i have played this song over and over again.. day in day out… to get the real feel of it.. for the wedding. Was hoping this song can be the song wen me and onie.. walk down the aisle at the reception.. a little more upbeat. My sister wants to have a singing session that nyte to.. so those who feel like contributing a tune or two…book ur songs early!!! hehehe****